Friday, 27 November 2009

Obsession

My "research" over the past 18 months into the wonderful world of kink has occasionally focussed on one particular area of study - the relationship between how one is feeling and how, well, "horny" one is! A sensible assumption would be that the better one feels, the more in need of spanking one is, and for the most part this is the case. I find, however, that there is one particular exception to this rule, which has surprised me several times.
The time that I feel at my most obsessed with spanking, the most in need of being dealt with is when I'm a little bit ill. Not ill enough to be asleep all day, but not ill enough to really be doing a huge amount either. This has happened two or three times, and I'm invariably utterly desperate for a spanking. So desperate I could explode. I obsess, I spend time on line, I crave. But of course the real irony is that if someone turned up and offered me this spanking I so desperately crave, I wouldn't actually, in the reality of the "here and now", want said spanking. Because I don't really feel well enough.
Is it just me that gets like this? Stupid mind. Stupid body.

2 comments:

Karl Friedrich Gauss said...

Not sure what this means, but interesting research nonetheless!

LizzyBee said...

I know exactly what you mean! I have been under the weather the past few days as well and I can't help but find myself daydreaming. I have always thought that maybe the reason why illness brings on the spanko urges is because spankings to me equal being looked after and cared for, nurtured even. So although realistically I am more likely needing hot soup than over the knee action, the desire is still there.

Hope we both start feeling better soon!