I've been totally disinterested in kink since I moved. Not scared of it, like last August, just utterly disinterested. Before, the thought of being spanked made me want to be sick, but this time, I just couldn't really care either way. This time, apart from twenty minutes of sheer, animal need in the middle of this week, there's been nary a glimmer of my kink, and I'm not sure that bothers me. In fact, the only reason I'm writing this post is that I want to canvas opinion.
The lack of interest leads me into several trains of thought, often contradictory. One is "Well, does it really matter if this is it, if I never feel kinky again?" One is "It's only been two weeks, get over yourself." Another, "Two weeks is a long time for you." Also, "I *do* care if my kink disappears... it's been part of who I am for two years and I like it."
One thing I do wonder, is that if I have unconsciously made the lack of interest worse. Have I, by keeping telling myself that I've lost all interest, actually reinforced that assumption more than would necessarily be true. Have I, in fact, made my disinterest worse?
So now I'm wondering what the cure is, or if I even should try and find one? Is it just worth getting on with it, getting a good spanking, get over the hump, as it were, and remind myself why I love being a kinky girl? Or is there a bigger risk of it just reinforcing my disinterest?
Alternatively, do I just leave well alone and let me head/desires sort themselves out in their own sweet time, however long that takes?
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