My "research" over the past 18 months into the wonderful world of kink has occasionally focussed on one particular area of study - the relationship between how one is feeling and how, well, "horny" one is! A sensible assumption would be that the better one feels, the more in need of spanking one is, and for the most part this is the case. I find, however, that there is one particular exception to this rule, which has surprised me several times.
The time that I feel at my most obsessed with spanking, the most in need of being dealt with is when I'm a little bit ill. Not ill enough to be asleep all day, but not ill enough to really be doing a huge amount either. This has happened two or three times, and I'm invariably utterly desperate for a spanking. So desperate I could explode. I obsess, I spend time on line, I crave. But of course the real irony is that if someone turned up and offered me this spanking I so desperately crave, I wouldn't actually, in the reality of the "here and now", want said spanking. Because I don't really feel well enough.
Is it just me that gets like this? Stupid mind. Stupid body.
17 hours ago