Various conversations with like-minded friends over the past few weeks have got me thinking (again..!) about why I like spanking, and I've decided that one of the reasons goes back to my childhood, and more specifically my school days.
I never got into trouble at school, and with "never" I exaggerate only a little. I was once kept in at break time when I was 10 because I hadn't finished a piece of work. That's it.
The reason I didn't get into trouble was because I was scared. Not so much of punishment, but of letting people down, of disappointing then. I was terrified of people thinking I wasn't nice, or good. I fundamentally am hard wired to please people, I think. (And no, that is *not* a submissive trait. Let's just not go down that path, OK? For all our sakes!!)
I was also, somehow, scared of losing people's love and respect if I misbehaved. So I didn't. I'm not saying I was never moody, or rude, especially at home: I have been a teenage girl, after all, but I was a Stepford child at school.
So, wandering back towards the point: I think that one of the reasons I like spanking, is that it gives me an opportunity to "get into trouble" in a safe environment. I can misbehave, get into trouble, be "punished", but without the fear of letting people down, or losing their respect. And that, for me, is something very freeing.
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